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Sappadāsattheragāthā

Sappadāsa

“Paṇṇavīsativassāni,
In the twenty-five years

yato pabbajito ahaṁ;
since I went forth,

Accharāsaṅghātamattampi,
I have not found peace of mind,

cetosantimanajjhagaṁ.
even as long as a finger-snap.

Aladdhā cittassekaggaṁ,
Since I couldn’t get my mind unified,

kāmarāgena aṭṭito;
I was racked by desire for pleasures of the senses.

Bāhā paggayha kandanto,
Wailing, with outstretched arms,

vihārā upanikkhamiṁ.
I left my dwelling.

Satthaṁ vā āharissāmi,
Shall I … or shall I slit my wrists?

Ko attho jīvitena me;
What’s the point of living?

Kathaṁ hi sikkhaṁ paccakkhaṁ,
For how on earth can one such as me die

Kālaṁ kubbetha mādiso.
after resigning the training?

Tadāhaṁ khuramādāya,
Then I picked up a razor,

mañcakamhi upāvisiṁ;
I sat on a cot:

Parinīto khuro āsi,
the razor was ready

dhamaniṁ chettumattano.
to slice my vein.

Tato me manasīkāro,
Then the realization

yoniso udapajjatha;
came upon me—

Ādīnavo pāturahu,
the danger became clear,

nibbidā samatiṭṭhatha.
and I was firmly disillusioned.

Tato cittaṁ vimucci me,
Then my mind was freed—

passa dhammasudhammataṁ;
see the excellence of the teaching!

Tisso vijjā anuppattā,
I’ve attained the three knowledges,

kataṁ buddhassa sāsanan”ti.
and fulfilled the Buddha’s instructions.

… Sappadāso thero ….